I don't even know where to start. This has been a year to test the faith in a strong way. It started with the sudden death of my second grandchild at 3 weeks old. I hidden heart defect. We are all so heart broken and I fear my daughters mental state and going back into addiction. She has been clean for year. This was followed my sister got a breast cancer diagnosis and she is already a struggling single mom. Then my daughter and 2 year old grandson were in a car accident and lucky ok, but the car is gone and my daughter is suffering pain. We recently found out our cat seems to have an unexplained mass on her neck. She is 10 and otherwise ok. They did say the mass wasn't cancer but a reactive swelling to an enlarged spleen. More tests that are expensive still to come. I can't handle any more pain and set backs. It's so hard to lean in when I am no longer believing in miracles that we need. I hurt for my family. Please pray and help change that. TIA