Pls pray I make the right decisions thruout Nov & Dec. God knows I can’t afford to be wrong. Now am flailing, clouded by spiritual fear & confusion. Pray for Him to keep my heart in right place, do what’s pleasing to Him, so I can receive compassion, pity & favor for my family - we’re going through a terrible tragedy now. Pls intercede, ask Him to save this family if we’ve done wrong, or keep us safe if it’s spiritual attack. I used to have strong faith, but now have trust issues, unsure if He is willing to go with me still in battle, or if He’d protect. In vicious cycle. Severe physical illness makes it harder to have discipline to do right & think right, then convicted in heart when I asked for help then fail Him daily. Worse, not strong in mind to see through deception & illusions of the enemy. Mom also irrationally overcome with violence & wrath often at turning pts, attacking me. I’m pushed to brink, can’t handle more. For myself - health increasing danger, need medical supply safely. Need surgery. Worse fear is long mths of overseas separation from family, esp. leaving 61yo Dad working/living alone when fearful for his health. Pls beseech God. Keep my beloved parents safe - they are my most impt. Keep me safe spiritually & don’t let me fall into darkness/hatred, nor walk into spiritual traps. Pray for spiritual protection everyday thruout Nov-Dec, I don’t know how to fight battles with God anymore (with a convicted heart daily on top of all, & alone, no community).