I had a miscarriage in Feb this year and my husband and I have struggled to get pregnant since.

I am at a place where I hate God. I hate church and don’t want to go as I’m surrounded by hundreds of happy pregnant women, babies, and kids.

Being late 30s I feel like the miscarriage was a cruel joke and I also feel that God is punishing me with this - despite being what I would consider a strong believer - even volunteering in ministry for 5+ years etc.

I don’t have anyone that I can talk to about this so would appreciate prayer. I have always trusted that God is faithful but to be completely truthful my faith is slipping away.

I feel like I need a prophetic word to get me out of what is beginning to feel like a bottomless pit.

Thanks in advance.